My love affair with anger

Samuel “Gentoku” McCree reveals how he discovered the secrets of rage and the way he conquered it

For years, I was hooked on to anger. I was addicted to the rush it gave me, and I loved the sense of power and strength that came along with it. But after each episode of rage there was always wreckage.

My life was filled with broken plates, damaged relationships, and most of all, shame. When I think back on all those moments of anger the first word that comes to my mind is regret. Yet, despite the pain that anger caused, it took me years to realise that I had a problem and even longer to get it under control.

The anger ideal

Anger is often idealised in the modern world. It is at the heart of daytime talk shows and reality TV; it’s even glorified in sports like football, boxing, and mixed martial arts.

The idealisation of anger made me think that rage was an acceptable—even desirable—way of being. I was often tempted by the passion that rage invoked, but eventually I saw that anger offers a false promise.

Anger doesn’t just harm those it’s directed at; it also harms the person caught in its grasp. It has taken me years to come to terms with the things I’ve said and done when caught in fits of anger. But all of this taught me that I can’t allow anger to rule my life. So, I spent several years learning to tame this fearsome beast.

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This was first published in the February 2014 issue of Complete Wellbeing.

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Samuel McCree
Samuel “Gentoku” McCree is a personal trainer, habit coach, and Mindful Fitness thought leader. He trained for over two years at a Zen monastery and shares his knowledge about the power of mindfulness and movement at


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