Animals are not in anguish. They appear happy—happier than man. What is the reason? Trees are even more happy than animals.
They are perfectly unaware of what can happen, of what is possible, of what is just near at hand. They are blissfully unaware. There is no anxiety. They drift. Man becomes anxious, and the greater a man, the more anxiety will be there.
If you simply live, you are living an animal existence. Religious anguish arises the moment you become aware that something is possible—the seed is there and I have to do something. I have to do something and the seed will sprout. The flowers are not very far away, and I can reap this crop—but still nothing is happening. A very impotent state is felt.
That was the Buddha’s condition before he became a Buddha. He was just on the verge of committing suicide. You will have to pass through that. And you cannot leave it to nature; you have to do something about it—and you can. And the goal is not very far.
If you feel a very tense anguish within you, a suffering, an agony, don’t feel depressed about it—that’s a good sign. That shows you are becoming more and more aware of that which is possible, and now you will never be at ease unless it becomes actual.
Man cannot leave it to nature because man has become conscious. Only a minor part of his being is conscious, but that changes everything. And unless your total being becomes conscious, you cannot know again the simple happiness of the animal or of the trees.
There is only one way to know it now: to become more and more alert, more and more aware, and more and more conscious. You cannot regress. There is no process for going back; no one can go back. You can either remain where you are and suffer, or you have to go forward and go beyond suffering. You cannot go back.
Total unconsciousness is blissful, total consciousness is blissful—and you are in between. A part of you has become conscious, and the major part of you is still unconscious. You are divided. You have become two, you are not one.
The integration is lost. Animals are integrated and then saints are integrated. Man is disintegrated: a part remains animal and a part has become saintly. There is a struggle, conflict, and whatsoever you do, you can never do with one heart.
So there are two ways. You can take drugs, you can take alcohol, you can take intoxicants—you fall back to the animal world. You drug the part that has become conscious; you become totally unconscious.
You can go on drugging yourself. There are many methods—not only chemical. There are religious methods. You can use a japa, a mantra: you can chant it and create an intoxicating effect. But this is a temporary deception.
The part, which you have forcibly suppressed with alcohol or drugs or something else will arise again, and then you will feel more suffering, because then you can compare.
Remember one thing: totality is bliss. If you are unconscious totally, then too it is bliss, but you are not aware of it. Animals are happy but they are not aware of their happiness. So it is futile.
It is just like when you are asleep you are happy, and whenever you are awake, you are unhappy. Totality is bliss.
You can be total in consciousness also. Then there will be bliss and you will be perfectly aware of it. This is possible through sadhana, through methods, through practising techniques, which increase your consciousness.
You are not enlightened because you have not done anything for it, but you have become aware that you are not enlightened. This has been done by nature; in millions of years, nature has made you aware.
You may not be aware of the fact that man has stopped growing as far as body is concerned. We have skeletons that are millions of years old, but there is no visible change; they are similar to our skeletons.
Even the brain has not grown; it has remained the same. As far as body is concerned, evolution has done whatsoever could have been done.
The skeleton of a Buddha and your skeleton are not basically different, but you and Buddha are absolutely different.
Evolution is working horizontally; methods, techniques, religions, they work vertically. Your body has stopped: it has come to a point, an omega point. Now there is no further growth for it. Horizontally, evolution has stopped; now a vertical evolution starts.
Now, wherever you are, you have to take a jump vertically. That vertical evolution will be of consciousness, not of body. And you are responsible for it.
Excerpted from The Book of Secrets/Courtesy: Osho International Foundation/www.osho.com